Thursday, December 22, 2011

I wonder...

When you call me stupid, how do you feel?
Do you think it doesn't matter because it seems unreal?
You're just an avatar insulting someone on the internet
But somewhere deep inside, you hold bitter regret

When you call me ugly, how do you feel?
Believe it or not, this is real
I may be just an avatar in another country that you can't see
But my feelings are quite fragile indeed

Sometimes I just laugh and pretend not to care
But I'm always hurt, frustrated, and scared
I smart to my own belief
But knowing that isn't enough relief

I am beautiful inside and out
When you say I'm ugly, I just want to shout
You're beautiful to me even though you're a troll
I know deep down inside, you have a soul

I've never insulted you or offended you
Why are you doing this to me, what did I do?
I'm a woman I guess, maybe that's it
I wish you'd stop, I'm starting to lose my grip

I want to be pretty and I want to be smart
But you're making that quite hard
Faith in myself is beginning to fade
Your words are beginning to make me change

I wonder, have you ever been bullied, have you felt the same?
That would explain why you are playing this game
You're a keyboard warrior and all you know is to attack
Can't we just get along? Because this shit is just wack

How far will you go until you stop?
When will you see that my self esteem is beginning to rot?
Sometimes I begin to believe all you've said
Sometimes that makes me wish I were dead

I wonder if you even care
Should I ask you, would I even dare?
I just want to have friends and fun
STOP making me feel like I'm constantly on the run.