Hunger Pains

My husband always chooses to do stuff that doesn't involve his family, is because he hates us, is unhappy? I don't know, all I know is that he cares more about his car than me and his kids. Here's what happened today:

Husband arrives home from work at 4:00pm on the dot, he's in a really good mood, compared to most days. He's excited because he's going to get stuff done for my car finally, it's in need of an oil change, I think he's mostly excited because he gets a discount and he knows the guys pretty well. That was fine with me that he was doing that for my car. After he gets that done, I think he said he was going to get a new bedset for our bed, one that matches the bed frame, etc.... I'm glad he's doing that too, but all that will take a bit of time and me and the kids have eaten all the remaining food today, we're hungry right now. I asked him to please, before going to do all that stuff, grab us some cheese burgers from McDonalds, he snickered and said quite rudely, "No.", that was then the end of the discussion on food.

I let the discussion go, hoping he'd change his mind before he left (he normally does when he's in a good mood), I waited and waited, nothing really changed at all. His mood then changed when he started to change from work clothes to civilian clothes, he was frustrated because for some reason the dryer is making our clothes stink and we have no idea why. He blamed me, like he always does, for a faulty dryer. I'm not sure how I made the dryer smell, but I guess it's my responsibility. So after him yelling at me over clothes, he then said he is leaving now. I'm already in a pissed off mood because we are starving, and he just made it worse by talking rudely to me, or rather, sounding rude to me. I briskly walk past him and say, "See ya later then." and storm off into my room.

I don't know if I'm being dramatic or what, I'm pregnant and to me, all this seems rational. I just want him to consider me and his children before objects. He has already blown through most our tax return money because his car (95 Honda) needed A LOT of work done. Most people I talk to, they discuss projects with each other and discuss if it's really necessary. My husband never asks me anything, he just does what he wants. Not like if he asked me and I said no, he'd listen.... He never listens. Know what I wanted to do with some of the money? I wanted to shop for clothes for myself and my new child inside my belly, I wanted to buy new converse, I wanted to spend $200 on groceries, I wanted new mattresses for our children, and God forbid, I wanted to redecorate my house. All he wanted to do was dress up his car, I'd understand if he HAD to repair certain things, but all he repaired was a few holes in his floorboard and then started buying fancy shit for his car. I.e, sound system, fancy taillights, new tires, new rims, new coil overs. Those are things a car doesn't really need. New tires maybe, but his old ones were fine.

I just want to feel like he cares about us instead of himself. I want him to buy us food when we need it when he knows he's going to be gone for a long time. I just want the typical family they show on tv, but LOL, that will never happen.

I'm fucking hungry!