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    Just got off the phone with my husband. My depression just worsened, here is how it started. I get a letter in the mail, it's from the Electric company, I open it and see that it is a termination letter. I forgot to pay the other half of the bill on the 15th, I panic and start to hate myself. Just then, my husband calls me (just in time I think), I tell him the situation and he then gets off the phone to transfer money to my account. He sounded really irritated before he hung up. I felt really bad because that is his money that he is having to transfer to me cause I am an idiot. When he called back to tell me the deed was done, I told him he was my best friend, hoping to get back on his good side. There was a second of silence then he says, "Yeah well, sometimes I wonder." That really hurt me, my own husband questions how I feel about him. I love him so much, I don't know what I would do without him. He is my heart and soul. Well, kids just walked in my room, I have to end this blog short for now.


-Kimberly